It been long time

It been long time I never blogging

2017

After back to work in the organization for 2 years

The urge of leaving turn stronger 

Even I don't know where I can go if I leaving 

I just know I need a deep rest to recover my body

Body turn week maybe not enough rest 

Everyday before work  wake up at 7.30am and reach home at 12.30am

This unhealthy lifestyle should stop

Maybe this is the sign to me

To explore another career 

Should I back to Malaysia permanently 

Or

After rest and back to Singapore 

I have no idea

My talent is only service 

Wish to future my study 

But I am scare to go back to my previous college lifestyle

Somehow I thinking if I really choose to study design

The use of double diploma it's will bring a really Bright side in my future  career

Obtaining EXSA soon 

After the award ceremony 

Which mean is time for me to leave and have a good rest 

FUE SURGERY

Tomorrow will have my FUE  surgery soon

Another challenge in my life

Which have to take 6 months for result and 1 years for recovery

 The surgery will start 10am to 7pm

A lot of people asking  am I scare

I just can reply my past are more scariest than this

It might have side effect in future as what I survey on web

i just wish to make myself better and better 

I never really relax myself this past 3 years

I am glad the time I resign my parent support me

They know I am stress and tired all along since I graduated

And

Last but not least

Nice to knowing you 'MARK MALONG'

You can not appreciate the view at the top unless you've I stood at the bottom. To be successful, you must understand what failure is like. And there 's nothing more humbling than starving for Success. There' s dignity in paying your dues and working your way up from the bottom. If we all started out rich with success, we'd never learn anything on the way up

2015 first blog

It been long time i didn't blogging

this coming june i will turn 25 years old time flies

been Aspial corporation Limited for 3 years

maybe can said that almost come to end

wealth is important to me that can make my family live good

i think currently i need a short break to plan for my future

i don 't know whether myself was making a right decision or not

but i just can tell myself that was no regret.

I wish to make my family dream come true 

Rebuild & Renovated the house is one of their dream since few years ago

but i really unable to do anythings right now

due to i feel that my income was not stable yet

after this coming May i will re-planning everythings

Just give me another two years

i will try my best to make their wish come true

i feel that i really need more time to accompany my family members

maybe after this i will have more time but without income for few month

 

 

feeling to leave

somehow now

i wish to resign so much

it make me feeling lost of my life

just because of the attractive salary

that make me can't leave 

choosing a wrong course is one of my regret of my life

i telling myself i will not make any decision that cause myself regret again

even i am planning to resign within this year 

and

start my new life

although i don't know what will happen if i resign and where i will be for the next

planning to bold my hair and rest for couple of month

since joining this company until now

i never relax myself

my brain only full of paperwork and sales target

feeling tired

i admit that i didn't perform well for this past few month

my sales drop month to month

but

i am actually very tired with my workflow

people leaving here and there

people transfer here and there

cause of this

every time make me not comfortable at all

i prefer a work place with family feel

time to time all had change

environment is very important to let myself determine

whether i will stay or leave

i am trying my best to control my mood

eventually

i am so tired

i just wish myself can happy always

recently i fear meeting up with new people

even right now

i feel a bit hard for me to talk with someone to express my feeling as well

it turn myself so call 'hard to believe everyone even myself'

Thanks

knowing you is the greater things that god given to me

you teach me everythings

compared to previous

i more happy than last time

more strong and more independant

thanks

today cut my finger second time in stall

but

does not feel any pain or hurt at all

happy to the max that happen to me in my shop

hit 10k sales in a day

the feeling was so great

^^

steven now

know more on his direction

No Pain No Gain

Thanks for everythings

you are the strongest person that i know

u are my example that achieved greater success

hope can know you more

I AM LOST

Recently my emotion really not that stable

i become more miserable

i like walk into a huge jungle that i lost myself so much

what can i do?

this question owe floating in my brain

i know that's all my own problem

i feel myself very useless

i thought i am the strongest 

but

today i feel myself weak like a frog

i even can't take care myself well

someone tell me that i owe depend on others

i really useless

at my aged i even can't manage myself well

what should i do?

since small till now

only myself that planning my life

i really tired all of this

everything i solved alone face alone

i tired to the max

hope everything will end soon

 'I HATE TO SMILE'

'I LOST MY SMILE'

but need to keep smiling

surprise

Finally promote to customer service executive

my lao pan really give me a big surprise

love all my colleagues so much

i will do my best and give u all my best

still have a lot of things to learn 

my weakness is the area that i need to improve most

recently i happy with my life so much

cause of all my friends, colleagues, family members

that always accompany me

they really bright my day

i feel caring from them so much

and

i know that u all are very care about me

i promise u all

i will life better and take care myself more

i will not let myself down anymore

 

Company

my company Aspial

hope promote to CSE soon

but seem like doesn't have any news that i will be promote

just do my part enough 

although don't have chance to promote to CSE but i happy with my working environment

as long as i still in woodland

in a short period i own my service star & compliment feedback from customer
but i doesn't feel satisfied at all
cuz i still feel that i have a lot of weakness that i need to improve
now 

i just wish to earn more

save more

feel like my family members have critical for their life 'MONEY'

steven must be strong

i promise can't so simply drop my tear

my tear only for my family members

i miss you kor kor jie jie nanny mum and dad

i really miss you all

Finally i own a platinum card from standard chartered

at my age 22 years old

It's nearest to get my 5C

had been long time didn't blogging

time flies it been 7 month i had work in singapore

The pay from my company change my life.

i can have a lot of saving at the same time

It also have sufficient money to spent for my parent

The things that i scare most is the day being transfer to other outlet

if the day came

will i stay or continue the asnwer???

myself also don't know

Right now!!!!

I need to cheer myself

i promise i will bring more money back home

i will save more

I love You

My

FAMILY

hard to breath

so suffering about the situation right now

what to do....

i really don't know

is a big amount for me to pay for the loan

if i make this step and agree with it

i am very stress

why this owe happen on me

i am tired

how far i upgrade myself

the money is the most big problem for me

i really tired

can i relax myself

i am strength less 

i think i will cry soon

beg for me

broken heart

Had been long time i did not updated my blog

feel tired of my life

although earn a lot of money but i not happy

my smile and laugh is fake

i feel alone

don't know why suddenly have such feeling

i miss my home

 miss my mum and dad so much

 hope i can spent more time with  them

now my mind just have my family

they are the people who most important for me

i feel like i don't have any best friend 

who i can trust 

and

who that i can lean on and sharing my pressure

next month will be 22 years old

and

i have nothing.

i have 1 wish

hope i can celebrate my b'day with my family members

but

can't cuz i need to work on that day

had been a quite long time didn't celebrate my b'day together with my family 

 mum i miss you so much

my life like totally miserable

can i cried like a baby 

cry like a baby like nobody as last time.

PROMISE

I will not sad anymore

as i promise myself

pain + hurt = experience

i do appreciate everythings and every moments

it sweet plus bitter

what a joke for me

what in my mind right now

just concentrate on my career

i want earn as much money as i can

i want bk my wild life

drink drank drunk

I need you beer

u are my everythings BEER

little life call steven

finally back to JB again

 10days staying at home

felt like don't wanna bk to JB anymore

but

 need start my new career in sg

i swear next trip bk my hometown

 will shop crazily with my parent them

and

no need worry about budget

hope always can stay beside my family members

KL

i will be bk just dunno when

must cheer myself and work hard

will owe remind myself

don't so simply give up
 believe become...

last but not least 

thanks my eldest sis

that caught bk my iphone from dropping on the floor

really thanks

if not cry die me

i will owe remember this date 26/12/2011

It's very sad

almost can't endure my tear 

when i think about the financial that been facing recently

i blame myself

why i can't earn much 

 even can't afford to buy anythings for my parent

heartache

i don't want this kind of life

i want to success

v my diploma cert

and 

my working experienced

now i more worrying about my eldest bro

his daughter will start study soon

really worrying

don't know he can manage to cover his financial or not

i want all my sibling live happily

this is my dream

i know this few year my eldest sis had been suffer 

due to financial problem in my family

she is tough enough

and 

i'am envy to her attitude

hope can learn from my sis

Do u know why i guide u so STRAIGHT

it just because i want to correct yr mistake

so someday u can success v colorful life

i just scare u will make mistake and cheat by other again

and

that time i can't even help you

i want you to inform me early about yr decision and everything

it's just because

i can stop you, if that is wrong step

but

everytime u won't listen to me

and

what that other said

u owe will listen to....

yr attitude like yr mum

like to listen other but not me

u didn't realize that eric told u

don't resign first cuz

u are not stable in HLA life

but do u know that

this i also told u before

but u never listen what i said

that why i give up to care u this friend

cuz within this year

u never listen to what i said

that why i hate to talk with u 

sometime

u even will not realize

that is yr fault

and

u just act dunno and talk about others topic

i most hate about it

anywhere

even i angry just only few days

really dunno why i can't even angry longer

i think u know my attitude well

i only give 3 chances to other

and 

no extra chances will be given

but u are over the chances

however i still given u chances

haizzz

A year i never swimming

Today is mine most relaxing day

went to swimming with my eldest sis and her friend

had been a year i never swim

while floating myself on water

i think a lot

MY FUTURE

MY LIFE

KL really heaven for me

it will not bored like JB

here have everythings
my friend

and
my hang out buddies

most important my family

wish to beside them always

so i can take care them

the landscape at 'Cheng Mou' swimming pool

really nice 

i think just because i live in JB quite long time

had been a year never seen high building

the feeling like

i am 'kampung kia'

Previously felt that 

KLCC AND KL TOWER

just a normal places

but 

This time bk home

it seriously attract me v the building

 suddenly feel like

i not familiar v this place anymore

hope one day i can permanently bk kl

I MISS HOME

I MISS KL LIFE

AND 

MY FRIENDZ

*when is my next trip bk KL again..... i really miss home and seriously become home sick child....

What in my brain?

i am scare to work in singapore

anywhere
i will try my best
still worrying which branch or outlet
will be arrange to......
i get offer $1800
at my aged 21st
need to work hard to achieved my dream
my target
VIOUS
need to save money to obtain it ^^
and
the most important are
earn more money
so i can let my parent eat good and wear good

  steven GOGOGO

lung

my lung was pain
look like isn't my lung
worry
look like time pass very fast
can i stop the time
very suffer v it

another adventure

Finally i step into singapore
to start my another adventure
aspial corporation limited
as
customer service assistant
or
business developer
bloody hell need to work 12 hour per day
and
return from
JB-SG-JB
luckily got 2 day off per week
hope i can usual myself
At the same time i feel scare as well
due to
my daily language
will exactly only English to cross sell
bless for me
cuz i still dunno which branches
i will be arrange to...
thanks my friend 'D' refer the job for me
really appreciate
finally get another higher income
i like my interviewer as well
she is kind to me
first time never feel any nervous
while interview
maybe previous in sales line
so i didn't scare any interview at all

THE COMPANY THAT I JOIN ALL BERHAD
actually i dislike huge company
cuz complicated
but no choice
this is my soul

1. internship at PAN PACIFIC KLIA HOTEL
2. RESORT WORLD GENTING BERHAD
3. HONG LEONG BANK BERHAD

AND
NOW
ISPIAL CORPORATION LIMITED

set myself free

i think is time to set myself free
so i won't get hurt again
treat someone else good
it mean
hurt myself much and much
even
'FRIENDS'
i am the person who no love in my life
for me
LOVE
mean
HURT
mean
FRIEND
mean
ENTERTAINMENT
mean
FAMILY
mean
FATHER AND MOTHER I LOVE YOU

why human need love?
i think it's not necessary anymore even in future

blogging

blogging is to release yr feeling
when u are pressure
or
sweet memory
but
now i am so miserable again
lost my way
felt very ignoring
felt uncomfortable
pls let me choose myself
i need my own decision