what should i do

look out from the aircraft
i had think a lot
already reach aged 21
but
still don't have my great future yet
now
i don't know what should i do
i even can't take care of my parent yet
income is one of the problem that cause me in maze
sometime i even dunno what i am doing
what i want
where should i stay
and
when i will success
should i continue stay at here
should i back kl for work
should i
i wish to further my study
but
once i calculated for the fee
it make me scare to step on
that is the reason i scare to make an decision on it
i scare myself will make a wrong decision
and
make parent, myself suffer like before

black sheep boy in b'day month

why my luck seem like change to bad
everything going not smooth
hard to get customer while calling
wanna cried
feel like very tired
but i know not only me but my colleague as well
but some of my colleague are damp lucky
cuz got third party to help
feeling really exhausted
can i rest more
i hope can throw away all my worried
can i be strong!can i!
i really miserable
hope i can be stronger and stronger

cried

today my tear drop
had been long time i never drop my tear out
not because of money but is my performance
felt sorry to my boss
that i can't help him much in order to hit his target
i had fail my task and responsibility as a employee
pls forgive me

haizzz

dunno both of you already read my blog or not
i still very struggle with my decision
i very confusing right now
what should i do...
i dunno

steven wish

seem like my life changed a lot...
from a child to teenager
from teenager to adult
is't very hard for me to manage my life
i have nothing and my age is reached 21 this year
i wish to further my study
but i worry my expenses and accommodation during my study time
if i work i can earn money and reduce my family burden
like that days
they just suddenly quarrel and do something stupid cuz of money
luckily i have saving and manage to settle all the things
how to said...
if that day i dun have saving
is't the thing will settle so easily..
i hope i can cry
but cry is useless
what should i do...
can someone tell me
should i cont my study that is one of my wish right now
or
continue working
T.T

i need someone to guide me
my friend suzzy and nicole i hope u can tell me
i have a lot of question mark??

we didn't break the rules pls

Is't this is the way malaysia police treat us... we got buckle up our sit bell but they block us and said we didn't. After we argue and he nothing to said then he said the mirror not pass then we show them the certificate that the mirror is not break the rules.. then he argue back we not buckle up our sit bell and ask us explain at court then he straight away open saman but he was scare when i want his employee id... he straight away open saman and ask us drive away.... then why we need police if like this... we got buckle up our sit bell what is our false and why we get saman...

nothing special

yesterday on the way back from
kluang to johor bahru
suddenly i miss my family members so much..
that time..
i think a lot...
sometime i really unhappy but no one can comfort me
just myself can raise myself up again..
steven gambateh.....