feeling

the feeling of scary
suddenly attack my heart

i wish to do what i want
but

i am scare on it
cuz i don't have a good supporter
i scare i will regret
i wish to walk forward to have a bright future
but
i scare once i unsuccessful my family will disappointed on me
maybe i think too much
but
i really scare on it
'BUT'
HOPE 1 DAY WILL DISAPPEAR IN MY LIFE

attension

no more thinking of study concentrate on working earn more money to have a better life start from now onward think how to save money.... every year got budget to travel around..... work hard and play hard .....money is my everything money come come.....

I VERY SUFFER V IT

i wish to further my study
but
my parent didn't save any money for me
when i ask them
can i further my study
they ask how much money that you already save
then why so little?
if u really want to further yr study
during college time
find a part time
and
earn some extra money
do you think, so easy to get a part time
v a suck schedule at tarc life
i don't want my life worry of my college fee + accomodation
LIKE LAST TIME
it's ptptn allow me to cover all
expenses for meal as well
i eat bread + sky juice
it's enough for me to live 2 year
( T . T )
i really want further my study v my friend
arg.......
but
i am strength less and unable
if i miss this opportunity
i won't think to study anymore
i will regret whole life
this is the answer you all want from me
OK
i continue work
i survive myself
i earn and spent myself
YOU ALL ARE DAMP HURT MY HEART
MY HEART IS BREAKING CUZ OF YOU ALL
I AM VERY SAD
I EVEN CAN'T EXPRESS MY SADNESS
DAMP IT
MY SMILE IS FAKE RIGHT NOW

happy day

happy that i success apply my first credit card
UOB
must manage to use it wisely
now waiting for another bank status
only can hold 2 bank card
curious, excited
and
nervous
which bank i can get for the next
muackkk

what should i do

look out from the aircraft
i had think a lot
already reach aged 21
but
still don't have my great future yet
now
i don't know what should i do
i even can't take care of my parent yet
income is one of the problem that cause me in maze
sometime i even dunno what i am doing
what i want
where should i stay
and
when i will success
should i continue stay at here
should i back kl for work
should i
i wish to further my study
but
once i calculated for the fee
it make me scare to step on
that is the reason i scare to make an decision on it
i scare myself will make a wrong decision
and
make parent, myself suffer like before

black sheep boy in b'day month

why my luck seem like change to bad
everything going not smooth
hard to get customer while calling
wanna cried
feel like very tired
but i know not only me but my colleague as well
but some of my colleague are damp lucky
cuz got third party to help
feeling really exhausted
can i rest more
i hope can throw away all my worried
can i be strong!can i!
i really miserable
hope i can be stronger and stronger

cried

today my tear drop
had been long time i never drop my tear out
not because of money but is my performance
felt sorry to my boss
that i can't help him much in order to hit his target
i had fail my task and responsibility as a employee
pls forgive me