I VERY SUFFER V IT

i wish to further my study
but
my parent didn't save any money for me
when i ask them
can i further my study
they ask how much money that you already save
then why so little?
if u really want to further yr study
during college time
find a part time
and
earn some extra money
do you think, so easy to get a part time
v a suck schedule at tarc life
i don't want my life worry of my college fee + accomodation
LIKE LAST TIME
it's ptptn allow me to cover all
expenses for meal as well
i eat bread + sky juice
it's enough for me to live 2 year
( T . T )
i really want further my study v my friend
arg.......
but
i am strength less and unable
if i miss this opportunity
i won't think to study anymore
i will regret whole life
this is the answer you all want from me
OK
i continue work
i survive myself
i earn and spent myself
YOU ALL ARE DAMP HURT MY HEART
MY HEART IS BREAKING CUZ OF YOU ALL
I AM VERY SAD
I EVEN CAN'T EXPRESS MY SADNESS
DAMP IT
MY SMILE IS FAKE RIGHT NOW

happy day

happy that i success apply my first credit card
UOB
must manage to use it wisely
now waiting for another bank status
only can hold 2 bank card
curious, excited
and
nervous
which bank i can get for the next
muackkk

what should i do

look out from the aircraft
i had think a lot
already reach aged 21
but
still don't have my great future yet
now
i don't know what should i do
i even can't take care of my parent yet
income is one of the problem that cause me in maze
sometime i even dunno what i am doing
what i want
where should i stay
and
when i will success
should i continue stay at here
should i back kl for work
should i
i wish to further my study
but
once i calculated for the fee
it make me scare to step on
that is the reason i scare to make an decision on it
i scare myself will make a wrong decision
and
make parent, myself suffer like before