1 AUGUST

everyday pressure, everyday emo, everyday crazy, everyday sot sot... now become more geng my unhealthy habit my own also not realize just last night sarah told me i crazy d ar.... so many in a day.. i just realize ya meh is many ma???? i still blur le.. donno at all..... haizzzzz everything changing, my own behavior, my meal time, my sleeping time, my strenght and my mood... now become easy to cry, easy get hurt, easy get injure, and the most important is i scare pass the road myself cuz for sure i will let car crash without reason, so where i go also need to call people accompany... if 1 day i choose to end my life sure go out alone cuz no need plan for die but will die naturally in the road...... already august la exam nearby corner but i still in blur situation............ i forgot to mention 1 thing le.... that day nicole first time directly at mamak stall said me handsome le... haha really happy that time cuz nicole seldom praise my style d.... but that day he said me 'handsome' really happy hehe.... mmmm thank nicole cuz plan so many activity for today and tmr suzzy sarah also join d, now 12.42pm later 2pm will hang out at sungei wang 'kai kai'.... now i need buy a lot of thing le... formal shoe, formal pant, cap and shoe d... haizz need spent a lot le... formal shoe already cost me rm99 but i havent buy la just look look at the price nia..... tmr sunday will go pc fair le.... happy happy cuz i no need alone at room haha...... tmr need to spent money buy laptop cooler also this time really pok kai lo.... next thursday we all will go genting highland play theme park le and clubbing also...... sure i can shout out loud loud.... although i not scare la play those thing at theme park but just shout out for relax.........

5 of us must together forever oo....

nicole

sarah

steven

suzzy

mishell

but my mum mishell so bad lo.... she back home ooo... didn't join us.... next time must join le... hehe if not beat u hehe.. just kidding la.. how come i dare to beat my mum ooo..... maybe later will take a lot of pict ooo... just maybe la ... see mood first lu........

relax day

31 JULY

today very relax haha.... all already settle and know jor lu..... haha..... today exam also like kanasai lo... don't know how to do at all.............. haizzzzzzzz this time cham lo..... dunno how to final also....... god bless me.... today buy short pant prepare and get ready join for the competition.... hurey... gambateh... if i kick out from audition i really no need be steven jor.... gambateh....

'bought new short pant'

29 JULY

that day when to cc after that straight away have my presentation hehe..... quite tired lu that day.. lepak whole day with sarah and mishell at mamak stall and ciber cafe.

CEO HERE HAHA

ACT COOL NIA

SHHHH MISHELL SLEEPING LE..... NEVER SEE LE

MY TEST

The Secret Meaning of Your Name Is:
Creative, versatile and imaginative you appreciate beauty in all forms. You have great inner strength and courage and have the ability to accept large responsibilities or challenging situations with patience and humility. Others admire these qualities and follow your lead. You are honest, discerning and self-disciplined and need to have a peaceful environment. Putting others before self your talents are used to make life better for everyone.

24 JUL

Today i skip whole day class and wake up at 5pm.. sorry to sarah d..... cuz sarah call me and ask me go for amanda lecture class but after i answer the call i straight away sleep back... but thank for your call d......... after wake up i called suzzy accompany me do a lot of thing, first went to wangsa maju saloon cut my hair for new look, second went to Maybank for bank in contact lens money, then we went to jusco also, bought steamboat item to steamboat at hostel, first time steamboat at hostel le.... hehe...... half way steamboat i called back home tell my parent that tmr i will back home myself, then my parent tell me that tmr will make steamboat at house also... omg that time really have a shock... cuz steamboat again haha...... but is ok la...... after steamboat i decided dye my hair so i can be different compare to before.......... and start my new life...... thank to all my classmates also cuz they really care me very much... every call that i call out to my classmates sure they will asked me today you still ok or not ar..... hehe really thank your caring d, i really appreciate it..... but i still can't change my unhealty habit but i can endure it d!!!!!!

inside jusco take pict very 'pai seh' d action haha

haha same with me take pict at market so 'xia sui'paid money lu.... total rm39.85 wallet empty lu....

take pict at escalator ooo... me d new hair style... wa so many 'mian hua tang' but we just bought 1 haha

female model for 2009

promoting 'mian hua tang'

nothing to do in room while waiting for steamboat so take some pict lu....

hehe noob noob d.......

our steamboat item

suzzy start cooking lu... chef of the day haha
guess what that suzzy holding ....not tray oo.. actually is cooker cover wakakaeyes so small i taking rice cooker cover but look like plate le....start dye hair lubeforeafter finally finish dye hair lu....

after dye hair i go to wash my clothes then continue steamboat again after that around 2am something i call sarah come out yamcha and online at cc hehe while yam cha i create 2 nickname to my friend hehe no need said is who la.. u all will know soon hehe..... thank suzzy crazy with me whole day and thank to sarah too cuz so late still yamcha and go ciber cafe with me......

22 AND 23 JULY

TO ALL MY FRIEND (23 JULY)
I try to change that unhealty habit but i failed to do it ... sorry to suzzy cuz i make u dissappointed again....... today i just realize i already let myself step in so deeply already and need that thing to 'relax' myself so that i won't think too much when i am free and nothing to do.....

Today afternoon 5pm mrs.deven class i cried almost half an hour in class, non-stop crying... thank you all cuz when i cying u all try yr best to persuade me and make me laugh but really sorry cuz that time i really can't stop my tear and i also want to thank my friend mun yee too cuz that time she act miss Lui to make me laugh really thank........ sorry for make u all so worried me that time.... thank to all my classmates.

ENGLISH FOR TOURISM CLASS (22 july)

That day such a boring class.... and waste our time.. that day all of us very tired until nicole really fall a sleep in class..... cuz she whole day didn't rest well morning she when to miss amanda class. then go for housekeeping practical after that 12pm suzzy and me go to meet nicole at library search infromation for our assignment.... after search all the info we straight away went to 4pm class........ really 'kanasaI' and waste time......

JUST ACT SLEEPING ONLY
U GUESS REAL SLEEP OR JUST ACT? SHHH...... SHE IS SLEEPING DON'T WAKE HER UP

MC DONALD

That day around 2am nicole, suzzy, ni hong and me went to mcdonald after i finish my assignment..... we hang out at there almost until 6am early in the morning....... nicole and me take a lot of 'zi pai zhao' at mcdonald.... that day nicole act a lot of post while taking pict haha

while suzzy just like a camera girl just help me take my pict hehe but finally suzzy also together take some pict with nicole.........

suzzy 'zi pai' le... don't be cheated actually is nicole help her take pict nicole acting scary face

'THIS JUST A SAMPLE STILL HAVE MANY POST' Licking finger act cute when i 'zi pai' suzzy take her phone snap me also

-GOOD MEMORY-

work at Shangri-la Hotel

not bad work at shangri-la hotel, all the staff at there treat us so nicely.... somemore the food at the canteen also delicious as well......... that day is yu yan shang anniversary a lot of dato, datin and rich people........ the table that i serve luckily just have 6 people..... and they very nice to me when i serve them, they also will joke with me...... although very tired but i learn a lot of thing............. at there i also can see a lot of leng lui haha.........

Do you will view it....

already pass 1 week....
my life and my behavior have a little bit changed...
i learn 1 bad habit that my own also not like it....
but when i try it the feeling will make me feel blur blur and i can relax myself,
so that i will have a nice sleep after this without thinking nonsense......
i know that is not good for health but that only way can make me had a nice sleep...
sorry cuz i make u all worried about me,
i also don't know why i will do this and continue this habit to my own.
i make myself have that kind of bad habit....
now i just know i need to learn independant to protect myself..
cuz the people that i most depending already give up to protect me.....
although we know each other for a short time but the feeling that he giving me like guard me to correct way, but that already past tense, now willn't have that such thing happen again as i know.
i really don't know u still angry me or not?
can i know the answer?
i think until end of my life i also will not know....

FRIENDSHIPS

SWEET TALK

TO

SWEET PEOPLE

FRIENDSHIPS

REMEMBER

YOU

ARE

NOT

ALONE

IMPORTANT

BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ROOM
WHEN I GET A KEY FROM U I REALLY HAPPY
AND
FEEL LIKE HAVING A WARN HOUSE AND A ROOM
WHEN FREE WENT THERE AND STAY
CARING FROM YOU AND SHARING WITH YOU REALLY MAKE ME HAPPY
AND YOU WILL NEVER SAID 'NO' TO ME...
THAT TIME REALLY FEEL LIKE APART FROM YOUR FAMILY MEMBER
MAYBE I TOO STICK YOU AND ALWAYS DID A STUPID ACTION AND EMO
AND MAKE ALL THE THING CHANGE TO WORST.
CHAT WITH U CAN MAKE ME FEEL RELAX AND LAUGH. WHEN U BESIDE ME, I REALLY FEEL SOMEONE THAT PROTECTDED ME FROM BEING BULLY...
AND U WILL TRY YR BEST TO MAKE ME LAUGH AGAIN WHEN I AM SAD
MAYBE WHAT I WANT IS TOO OVER...
AND MAKE UNTIL U FEEL STRESS AND PRESSURE...
BUT
THAT DAY REALLY HAPPY CUZ U SAID OUT YR OWN FEELING FROM YR HEART
CUZ U OWEZ TO DON'T TELL ME YR FEELING AND I HOPE TO KNOW YR FEELING TOO.
THAT DAY I REALLY HAPPY CUZ I KNOW WHAT U ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW....
SORRY FOR MY CHILDINESS AND DIDN'T REALIZE THAT I ALREADY OVER LIMIT THAT WHAT I DONE....
I KNOW IS VERY HARD TO MAINTAIN AS BEFORE ALREADY
I HOPE SOMEDAY WILL BE BACK AS BEFORE
LAUGHT, SMILE, JOY, HAPPY WITHOUT SADNESS.