hard to breath

so suffering about the situation right now

what to do....

i really don't know

is a big amount for me to pay for the loan

if i make this step and agree with it

i am very stress

why this owe happen on me

i am tired

how far i upgrade myself

the money is the most big problem for me

i really tired

can i relax myself

i am strength less 

i think i will cry soon

beg for me

broken heart

Had been long time i did not updated my blog

feel tired of my life

although earn a lot of money but i not happy

my smile and laugh is fake

i feel alone

don't know why suddenly have such feeling

i miss my home

 miss my mum and dad so much

 hope i can spent more time with  them

now my mind just have my family

they are the people who most important for me

i feel like i don't have any best friend 

who i can trust 

and

who that i can lean on and sharing my pressure

next month will be 22 years old

and

i have nothing.

i have 1 wish

hope i can celebrate my b'day with my family members

but

can't cuz i need to work on that day

had been a quite long time didn't celebrate my b'day together with my family 

 mum i miss you so much

my life like totally miserable

can i cried like a baby 

cry like a baby like nobody as last time.