brother, buddy and town

do i really have own brother?
what i hope is my bro will joke with me..
play with me..
take care me…
help me to solve my problem…
share with me…..
but i think it will not appear in my life
now i prefer stay in town compare to capital city
the environment for me in town is so comfort and fresh my mind
all the people in town are nice and helpful..
everytime i visit to town all the disturbance are gone away and this really can relax my mind
i really less of male buddy and guy friend
friend who giving me name of ’brother’ is just a name but nothing special
now feel like wanna far away from all the human?
i really can get a good buddy ma?
do i?
i think god also can’t answer my question?
cuz this world are too reality..
and my own brother also don’t know what i am thinking?
how come other will know?

who will read it?

i really not i am
i lost everything
my strength
my soul
my spirit
my ability
and
i lost control
i already lost the feeling of ‘missing home’
the distance with family member like a wall that separate us
hard to communicate
nobody understand me
is no one
i am tiring
can i rest and have a nap?
can i?

FRIEND

FRIEND
WHAT IS THE MEANING OF
‘FRIEND’
FRIEND GIVING ME HAPPINESS
BUT AT THE SAME TIME
I GET SADNESS FOR THE ENDING
I GIVEN MY FRIEND ALL MY THING
TIME
HOLIDAY
SLEEPING TIME
AND
ALL MY BELONGING
BUT
I REALIZE
I NEED TO PROTECT MYSELF TO BEING HURT
THAT IS ONLY BELIEVE MYSELF
FRIEND IS FOR ENTERTAINT MY TIME
I LEARN A LOT, I REALLY LEARN A LOT
THAT MAKE ME CHANGING MYSELF
BECAUSE OF ‘FRIEND’
PLEASE USE YOUR HEART TO BE MY FRIEND
IF NOT PLEASE GET LOST

TIME

• TIME
  PASS LIKE WIND
  UNPREDICTABLE LIFE
  GOING ON AND ON
  TIME LIKE A GOLD
  IF THE TIME PASS
  WE CAN’T GET BACK THE TIME
  HUMAN ONLY GOT 100YEARS LIFETIME
  AND
  MAYBE SHORTER
  WE SHOULD APPRECIATED PEOPLE AROUND US
  FAMILY, LOVER, FRIEND
  FAMILY ALWAYS WITH YOU
  LOVER SUPPORT YOU
  BUT
  FRIEND MAYBE LEAVE YOU
  AND
  NOT ALWAYS WITH YOU
  SO
  NOW I KNOW THAT
  FIRST IS FAMILY
  SECOND IS LOVER
  THIRD IS FRIEND