It's very sad

almost can't endure my tear 

when i think about the financial that been facing recently

i blame myself

why i can't earn much 

 even can't afford to buy anythings for my parent

heartache

i don't want this kind of life

i want to success

v my diploma cert

and 

my working experienced

now i more worrying about my eldest bro

his daughter will start study soon

really worrying

don't know he can manage to cover his financial or not

i want all my sibling live happily

this is my dream

i know this few year my eldest sis had been suffer 

due to financial problem in my family

she is tough enough

and 

i'am envy to her attitude

hope can learn from my sis

Do u know why i guide u so STRAIGHT

it just because i want to correct yr mistake

so someday u can success v colorful life

i just scare u will make mistake and cheat by other again

and

that time i can't even help you

i want you to inform me early about yr decision and everything

it's just because

i can stop you, if that is wrong step

but

everytime u won't listen to me

and

what that other said

u owe will listen to....

yr attitude like yr mum

like to listen other but not me

u didn't realize that eric told u

don't resign first cuz

u are not stable in HLA life

but do u know that

this i also told u before

but u never listen what i said

that why i give up to care u this friend

cuz within this year

u never listen to what i said

that why i hate to talk with u 

sometime

u even will not realize

that is yr fault

and

u just act dunno and talk about others topic

i most hate about it

anywhere

even i angry just only few days

really dunno why i can't even angry longer

i think u know my attitude well

i only give 3 chances to other

and 

no extra chances will be given

but u are over the chances

however i still given u chances

haizzz