little life call steven

finally back to JB again

 10days staying at home

felt like don't wanna bk to JB anymore

but

 need start my new career in sg

i swear next trip bk my hometown

 will shop crazily with my parent them

and

no need worry about budget

hope always can stay beside my family members

KL

i will be bk just dunno when

must cheer myself and work hard

will owe remind myself

don't so simply give up
 believe become...

last but not least 

thanks my eldest sis

that caught bk my iphone from dropping on the floor

really thanks

if not cry die me

i will owe remember this date 26/12/2011

It's very sad

almost can't endure my tear 

when i think about the financial that been facing recently

i blame myself

why i can't earn much 

 even can't afford to buy anythings for my parent

heartache

i don't want this kind of life

i want to success

v my diploma cert

and 

my working experienced

now i more worrying about my eldest bro

his daughter will start study soon

really worrying

don't know he can manage to cover his financial or not

i want all my sibling live happily

this is my dream

i know this few year my eldest sis had been suffer 

due to financial problem in my family

she is tough enough

and 

i'am envy to her attitude

hope can learn from my sis

Do u know why i guide u so STRAIGHT

it just because i want to correct yr mistake

so someday u can success v colorful life

i just scare u will make mistake and cheat by other again

and

that time i can't even help you

i want you to inform me early about yr decision and everything

it's just because

i can stop you, if that is wrong step

but

everytime u won't listen to me

and

what that other said

u owe will listen to....

yr attitude like yr mum

like to listen other but not me

u didn't realize that eric told u

don't resign first cuz

u are not stable in HLA life

but do u know that

this i also told u before

but u never listen what i said

that why i give up to care u this friend

cuz within this year

u never listen to what i said

that why i hate to talk with u 

sometime

u even will not realize

that is yr fault

and

u just act dunno and talk about others topic

i most hate about it

anywhere

even i angry just only few days

really dunno why i can't even angry longer

i think u know my attitude well

i only give 3 chances to other

and 

no extra chances will be given

but u are over the chances

however i still given u chances

haizzz

A year i never swimming

Today is mine most relaxing day

went to swimming with my eldest sis and her friend

had been a year i never swim

while floating myself on water

i think a lot

MY FUTURE

MY LIFE

KL really heaven for me

it will not bored like JB

here have everythings
my friend

and
my hang out buddies

most important my family

wish to beside them always

so i can take care them

the landscape at 'Cheng Mou' swimming pool

really nice 

i think just because i live in JB quite long time

had been a year never seen high building

the feeling like

i am 'kampung kia'

Previously felt that 

KLCC AND KL TOWER

just a normal places

but 

This time bk home

it seriously attract me v the building

 suddenly feel like

i not familiar v this place anymore

hope one day i can permanently bk kl

I MISS HOME

I MISS KL LIFE

AND 

MY FRIENDZ

*when is my next trip bk KL again..... i really miss home and seriously become home sick child....

What in my brain?

i am scare to work in singapore

anywhere
i will try my best
still worrying which branch or outlet
will be arrange to......
i get offer $1800
at my aged 21st
need to work hard to achieved my dream
my target
VIOUS
need to save money to obtain it ^^
and
the most important are
earn more money
so i can let my parent eat good and wear good

  steven GOGOGO

lung

my lung was pain
look like isn't my lung
worry
look like time pass very fast
can i stop the time
very suffer v it

another adventure

Finally i step into singapore
to start my another adventure
aspial corporation limited
as
customer service assistant
or
business developer
bloody hell need to work 12 hour per day
and
return from
JB-SG-JB
luckily got 2 day off per week
hope i can usual myself
At the same time i feel scare as well
due to
my daily language
will exactly only English to cross sell
bless for me
cuz i still dunno which branches
i will be arrange to...
thanks my friend 'D' refer the job for me
really appreciate
finally get another higher income
i like my interviewer as well
she is kind to me
first time never feel any nervous
while interview
maybe previous in sales line
so i didn't scare any interview at all

THE COMPANY THAT I JOIN ALL BERHAD
actually i dislike huge company
cuz complicated
but no choice
this is my soul

1. internship at PAN PACIFIC KLIA HOTEL
2. RESORT WORLD GENTING BERHAD
3. HONG LEONG BANK BERHAD

AND
NOW
ISPIAL CORPORATION LIMITED

set myself free

i think is time to set myself free
so i won't get hurt again
treat someone else good
it mean
hurt myself much and much
even
'FRIENDS'
i am the person who no love in my life
for me
LOVE
mean
HURT
mean
FRIEND
mean
ENTERTAINMENT
mean
FAMILY
mean
FATHER AND MOTHER I LOVE YOU

why human need love?
i think it's not necessary anymore even in future

blogging

blogging is to release yr feeling
when u are pressure
or
sweet memory
but
now i am so miserable again
lost my way
felt very ignoring
felt uncomfortable
pls let me choose myself
i need my own decision

feeling

the feeling of scary
suddenly attack my heart

i wish to do what i want
but

i am scare on it
cuz i don't have a good supporter
i scare i will regret
i wish to walk forward to have a bright future
but
i scare once i unsuccessful my family will disappointed on me
maybe i think too much
but
i really scare on it
'BUT'
HOPE 1 DAY WILL DISAPPEAR IN MY LIFE

attension

no more thinking of study concentrate on working earn more money to have a better life start from now onward think how to save money.... every year got budget to travel around..... work hard and play hard .....money is my everything money come come.....

I VERY SUFFER V IT

i wish to further my study
but
my parent didn't save any money for me
when i ask them
can i further my study
they ask how much money that you already save
then why so little?
if u really want to further yr study
during college time
find a part time
and
earn some extra money
do you think, so easy to get a part time
v a suck schedule at tarc life
i don't want my life worry of my college fee + accomodation
LIKE LAST TIME
it's ptptn allow me to cover all
expenses for meal as well
i eat bread + sky juice
it's enough for me to live 2 year
( T . T )
i really want further my study v my friend
arg.......
but
i am strength less and unable
if i miss this opportunity
i won't think to study anymore
i will regret whole life
this is the answer you all want from me
OK
i continue work
i survive myself
i earn and spent myself
YOU ALL ARE DAMP HURT MY HEART
MY HEART IS BREAKING CUZ OF YOU ALL
I AM VERY SAD
I EVEN CAN'T EXPRESS MY SADNESS
DAMP IT
MY SMILE IS FAKE RIGHT NOW

happy day

happy that i success apply my first credit card
UOB
must manage to use it wisely
now waiting for another bank status
only can hold 2 bank card
curious, excited
and
nervous
which bank i can get for the next
muackkk

what should i do

look out from the aircraft
i had think a lot
already reach aged 21
but
still don't have my great future yet
now
i don't know what should i do
i even can't take care of my parent yet
income is one of the problem that cause me in maze
sometime i even dunno what i am doing
what i want
where should i stay
and
when i will success
should i continue stay at here
should i back kl for work
should i
i wish to further my study
but
once i calculated for the fee
it make me scare to step on
that is the reason i scare to make an decision on it
i scare myself will make a wrong decision
and
make parent, myself suffer like before

black sheep boy in b'day month

why my luck seem like change to bad
everything going not smooth
hard to get customer while calling
wanna cried
feel like very tired
but i know not only me but my colleague as well
but some of my colleague are damp lucky
cuz got third party to help
feeling really exhausted
can i rest more
i hope can throw away all my worried
can i be strong!can i!
i really miserable
hope i can be stronger and stronger

cried

today my tear drop
had been long time i never drop my tear out
not because of money but is my performance
felt sorry to my boss
that i can't help him much in order to hit his target
i had fail my task and responsibility as a employee
pls forgive me

haizzz

dunno both of you already read my blog or not
i still very struggle with my decision
i very confusing right now
what should i do...
i dunno

steven wish

seem like my life changed a lot...
from a child to teenager
from teenager to adult
is't very hard for me to manage my life
i have nothing and my age is reached 21 this year
i wish to further my study
but i worry my expenses and accommodation during my study time
if i work i can earn money and reduce my family burden
like that days
they just suddenly quarrel and do something stupid cuz of money
luckily i have saving and manage to settle all the things
how to said...
if that day i dun have saving
is't the thing will settle so easily..
i hope i can cry
but cry is useless
what should i do...
can someone tell me
should i cont my study that is one of my wish right now
or
continue working
T.T

i need someone to guide me
my friend suzzy and nicole i hope u can tell me
i have a lot of question mark??

we didn't break the rules pls

Is't this is the way malaysia police treat us... we got buckle up our sit bell but they block us and said we didn't. After we argue and he nothing to said then he said the mirror not pass then we show them the certificate that the mirror is not break the rules.. then he argue back we not buckle up our sit bell and ask us explain at court then he straight away open saman but he was scare when i want his employee id... he straight away open saman and ask us drive away.... then why we need police if like this... we got buckle up our sit bell what is our false and why we get saman...

nothing special

yesterday on the way back from
kluang to johor bahru
suddenly i miss my family members so much..
that time..
i think a lot...
sometime i really unhappy but no one can comfort me
just myself can raise myself up again..
steven gambateh.....

TIME IS PAST TOO FAST

WISH ALL MY BUDDY FRIEND AND FAMILY MEMBERS

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
TIME PAST UNTIL OUT OF MY EXPECTATION
THIS YEAR I WILL REACH 21 YEAR OLD AFTER MY B'DAY
HOPE THAT I CAN EARN AS MUCH MONEY AS I CAN
IN ORDER TO SUPPORT MY FAMILY
ALTHOUGHT I LEAVE KL AND STAY AT JB
BUT I OWE TO MISS MY FAMILY MEMBERS
HOPE ONE DAY I CAN LET YOU ALL
LIVE LIKE A MILLIONAIRES
WITHOUT WORRYING OF FINANCIAL PROBLEM