if you is me

if you is me

will u like my behavior

will u like my habit

do u like the way that i communicate

will u like my overall

i know i am weak

i know i owez thinking nonsense

just because i think for my future

and

the things that i predict will happen

i only a normal human

just hope can everyday life peacefully

without sadness

i have my own slogan too

i just a normal guy

live in simple life

and

always like to make people laugh and smile

although i not crying doesn't mean i am happy

when i am crying that mean i really get hurt

or

something make me really sad

just want to apologize to my parent at here

cuz

u all think i am the most good child among 5

but i am not as good as u think

what i am done previous

if one day u found out

i think i will make u all dissappointed

i am sorry

i am sorry

MUM, DADDY AND MAMI (NANNY)

most caring me in this world

i love them so much

i promise

how suffer i am

i also will success in my life

i won't let other people look down us again

money is everything

cuz of money

start changing relationship with relatives

MY OWN BROTHER (gor gor)

he is my hero in my heart

cuz of him nobody dare to bullying me

since i was KIDS till now

when i get incident or accident

just a call

my bro will always beside me

and protect me from being hurt or injured by other

thanks bro

2 SISTER

just hope both of my sis relationship will become closer again

and won't quarrel with each other again

and tolerated with each other

although when kids my scar at my face is 'cubit' by yrs

during secondary skul i mind that my face got scar

but now

that is not important

the important is

the realtionship between family members

that is the most important

MY YOUNG BROTHER

just hope he won't doing mistake like me

life in unhealthy lifestyle

although mum said i am example for u

but i think i am not a good example as mum think

just hope u life happily enough

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i am scare

i scared graduted from tarc... i scare cuz yesterday i just realize i really don't have much friend at hometown already... just can said if have just have 1 or 2.... how to continue life if after graduated need to move back stay at homwtown ... i really scared........this 2 day stay at home really feel lonely and nothing to do...... handphone no ringing from h.town friend also that calling me out (maybe cuz that day yam cha-ing i give bu shuang the face to them cuz really change many places just because of wanna ate dessert and maybe that day u all want watch movie but my college friend got problem i back college find my friend) ..... whole day sit infront laptop and dreaming just can eat and sleep..... if after graduted my college friend also leave me and back their own h.town... just can said i really don't have friend le.... just can alone shopping, alone breakfast, lunch, dinner even watch movie at cinema....... now feel happying cuz still got 4 of my best friend beside me... but after graduated who will beside me when i got problem... who will beside me when i am sad.... and who will beside me when i am lonely........ i will appreciated this 5 month with yrs... cuz after 5 month, maybe we need to separate for our intership and then back our h.town le..... (T . T )crying.................. really hope can stay with u all longer and longer............ (alone at hometown-ing)

BABYLONE CAFE AT KEPONG

(supper with edwin, nicole, suzzy and sarah)

(second time drive to tarc hostel fetch them ooo)

sarah menicole my lovely mum and dad bought to me the box ooo

not only box but can sit as a chair also

muackkkkk mum and dad

that day make sushi to my lovely friend d...

GENTING TRIP WITH MY CLASSMATE

guess what i am doing right now

just have a look

18 august

today i skip restaurant practical cuz i didn't buy the black colour hair spray....... after that i wake up at 2pm something..... then i decide go to 'silver cut' to cut my hair....... haizzz the people who always help me cut my hair d today offday.. so i have no choice then change another hair stylist help me cut ba......... 4.30pm meet nicole, suzzy , sarah and mishell at lrt wangsa maju and take putra lrt to klcc watch movie.... we watch '009'.... this movie okok and fun also...... i like my before d hair style more than now.......

beforeafterkiss the bear bear at klcc after watch movie

19 august

early morning housekeeping practical test..... actually damp scary cuz i didn't do any revision.... luckily the question is not that hard as i think... then 4pm english for international tourism class... today we will get our overall coursework mark... i really damp that stupid lecture..... damp damp her..... y she so ' kiam siap' give all of us so low mark... stupid..... damp angry..8pm 5 of us went to mcdonald to have our dinner.... that lousy mcdonald at melati utama make us can't online.... i went to the counter and call them refresh for the wifi... then they just said 'ok pls wait for while we will restart the wifi' after wait for few minutes we still can't online omg... damp angry again... then i asked the cashier again.... 'why we still can't online' the stupid replied ' sorry sir our wifi already few day system down already'... really f**k the staff lo... why they didn't tell me early that the wifi already system down for few day and need me to walk to the counter asked for few time just tell me the true.... really stupid d 'ma lai zhu' staff. all people at the mcdonald try to connect and some of them restart their laptop cuz thought that their laptop got problem.. haizzzzzz mcdonald ar mcdonald at melati utama... then 12am edwin come to fetch us going to titiwangsa for relax....... we play game at there and drink some alcohol... damp fun also the people who loss during the game need to be punish for doing something funny.. hehe really fun and happy while playing the game...... i will upload the video soon hehe

20 august

today i can't wake up cuz too tired already hehe so i skip restaurant management class...... and sleep until 2pm just wake up... after that ate lunch with my mum mishell..... hehe and continue my sleep after lunch..... after deven class then we accompany mishell take lrt at wangsa maju, beside that we also have our dinner at wangsa too d......
____________________________________________________

i know i am weak

i not as strong as u think

sometime i really don't know

what i am doing

what i was dreaming

what i want

and

my direction in my life

if one day

god giving me 3 wishes

i will give to my

1)family

2)friend

and

3)lover 'if i meet who i love'

family

i wish that my family will life healthy without illness

i willing to endure my life time to let my family member

happy forever

friend

i wish all my friend life without sadness

espeacially 4 of my lovely friend

lover

i got decide to single forever if i didn't meet someone that i love

so i kept my thirth wishes

and

give to my family or friend if i am single

______________________________________________________

friend
all of us in our life have our own experiences and stories

different people bring you different Happiness and Sadness

but

once we go through all this thing

it become memories of our journey

sincere friend like you is hard to find.

so you are important to me until end of my life

feeling

16 august

today sarah suddenly emo-ing cuz of something happen... make all of us worring on her.... we all going back h.town already and leave her alone at tbr that time......... she run away and going out alone during midnight make me more worring again... then after yam cha-ing with my friend i drive through tbr find sarah.. this is my first time drive out to highway, actually drive until half way, we lost our direction, then we just refer to notice board to reach tbr.... finally arrived tbr.... luckily that time i got car.. so that i can drive throught tbr to find her.... she was drunk, finger bleeding and vomit on the floor when we reach there........ suzzy and me try our best to comfort her......... after that i decided fetch sarah stay at my house until monday so that she will not think nonsense again and feel that she is alone-ing........... actually before i going out yam cha i tell my secondary skul friend that i can't drive out too far and i can't go out until so late just going back home...... but in car i can see that my secondary skul friend is not 'shuang' already..... this time i also don't know how to settle them...... one of my secondary skul friend said 'i totally dissappointed on u while sms-ing' now i also donno what to do........

15 august

althought i practice a lot but when i reach there i feel nervous....... i didn't perform well at all.... this contest got a lot of 'leng chai' join also d..... actually that day i really no mood to continue the audition anymore cuz of something..... but already past so is ok d...... when i stand on the stage i using cantonese to intro myself and i forgot mention 'where i come from'.... after that the interview ask me 'why u cut yr hair like this'? do u like it? really make me blur blur.... maybe my hair style got problem ba...... after that they call me do u prepare any talent?.. then i said 'yes' but i cannot sing 'kao ying'... then the interviewer call me to sing...... after that the interviewer said will call u for the futher information if u are selected.... the interviewer forgot call me to catwalk somemore.. then i straight away come down to th stage... haizzzz make all my friend dissappointed... sorry d..... i don't think that i will be choosen for this contest.... now just can get ready and prepare for exam.......... anywhere thank for all of yr support d...... while going back home i bang my head to the bus stop schedule board.. really pain...' now 'bengkak' already

DURING AUDITION

10 august

thank for suzzy and nicole cuz judge me to sing and teach me catwalk but that day they didn't call me show the catwalk d...... after ate sushi king and catwalk under cctv at klcc, all of us (nicole, sarah, suzzy. ah soon and me) decide to clubbing at quattro there........ i straight away 4 day continue drinking alcohol... and that unhealthy habit.... when i emo-ing i really need that thing...... enjoy the catwalk show that we record oo.....

sarah, ah soon, me and suzzy

nicole, ah soon and sarah

special day..

5 august
today after housekeeping practical class went to shooting le... so exited but i didn't perform well lo.. cuz i owez to act cute but they want d pict is cool cool d oo..... haizzzzzzz... then they call me to come again to take news pict when i am free....... this is my first time join contest le...... if start voting must vote me oooo....... after shooting rush back to attend that english class..... really tired d...

after edit
do u believe is me?

like married d pict lo wakaka

smile until like get gold

look like wanna kill all people in this wolrd

4 august

mmm whole night didn't sleep then when to restaurant practical... that kanasai 'fei chai' when i enter the restaurant he scold me 'do u know during practical u can't dye yr hair if u don't want to dye black.. just use black colour spray to spray for the following practical' shit him la..... then like crazy there scold people, like all of us hutang his money and work for him.... really make me 'pek chek'... whole day practical i just show my 'black black the face to him' without talk with him... what he said or ask me to do .. i just shake my head nia.....

3 august

went to blood donation..... didn't feel scare at all lu.. cuz second time donated my blood d.... when i donate my blood i shock the helper lo cuz i laughing non-stop at there cuz i see suzzy donated blood until cry oo haha.... sorry d cuz i can't control myself to laugh hehe.... apologize to suzzy at here d..... after donation then go to lucky draw.... omg so happy first time get 'hamper' le.... haha really my lucky day le.... then after that i get a call to join for fit male and fit female contest... haha quick happy lu cuz can try new thing.. then i decide to call my nanny buy number lo.... i call my nanny buy number '3' but my nanny forgot buy le.... that night really kena number '3'... haizz if got buy sure i treat my friend eat 'good good d food'

while donate my blood

wa so many blood le 'O' type d.

2 august

went to pc fair and we bought a lot of cheap thing lo........ we really crazy haha cuz non-stop hang out and shopping around but really fun la cuz that can make me feel my friend is with me and i am not alone... thank them d.... cuz i really not in mood and i already don't know who i am.... after walk around at pc fair... all of us bought a shirt at ROMP except sarah lo didn't buy any shirt ooo...

rm49.90

1 august (continue)

that day went to sungei wang take some pict... realy fun and happy , I long time didnt watch movie le...... hehe before watch movie i bought a new shoe and then we take our lunch at gasonline... we hang out until midnight and dinner at wangsa maju hehe... crazy day

Gasonline

suzzy

nicole

me

sarah

wakaka why his eye more bigger than me

take pict behind atm haha

super model 2009 again.. this pict suzzy win jor lo u see her leg?

before going out

same but didn't wear jacket lo...